I'm sick of stifling smoke
in the room I trapped myself in so long ago,
where the blinds remain forever closed.
Will it change? I hope so.
'Cause I have spent the past two years
trying to find some peace of mind
and I think I might've found it this time.
Now I'm finally listening to all those times I was told,
"Don't keep your thoughts beneath the surface.
All that does is defeat the purpose."
Feel the weight of reality
in how easy it could be to
just walk out my front door
and let the light shine on me.
I'll dig out my way through all of my mistakes and past discretions.
I'll find a new direction to carry me home
I'm tired of regretting every thought I'm thinking, no matter how convincing.
I'll take my chances under circumstances that my mind allows.
I'll find my footing someway, I don't know how, but I know I'm better now.
I'm just a product of the man I was back then.
With foresight I lacked, I'd break my back to try again.
It's time I made amends with myself, (no one else), no one else.
I won't give this time to dwell.
I keep chasing possibility, but I'll catch it when it comes around.
I'm crawling my way out, but I know I'm better now.
All along, you've lied to yourself, all along you've lied to yourself.
credits
from A Sense of Awareness,
released November 30, 2018
Recorded and produced by George Yurchak at Five Minute Major Studio
Mixed and mastered by Andrew Yuro
Album Artwork by Chris Ventura
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